11:11

11:00

I should be asleep.
I shouldn't be thinking of this.
Of you.
I shouldn't be listening to this song.
Replaying it till my eyes sting from tears.

11:01

There's nothing I can tell her.
The girl in the mirror, is me.
I get it.
I need to stop replaying it.
It's only making me cry more.

11:02

But I can't.
I can't.
Because…
It's true.
Every word…
And it's killing me.

11:03

I need sleep.
But… I haven't,
Said goodnight to you.
Who am I kidding.
Even if you were on…
If you were here…
I couldn't say it.

11:04

I'm drowning again.
End of story.
I'm drowning on my own tears.
I give up.
Mmkay?
Don't bother trying to save me.
No... not give up...
Give in.

11:05

There's nothing I can say.
Nothing but…
I love y--
Never mind.
If I say it…
I'm admitting defeat.

11:06

You understand right?
Understand that,
Even though I come off as fine…
I'm a mess.
I need you.
I… need to know you're there.

11:07

Sleep. I need sleep.
My thoughts are getting jumbled.
But… I'm scared.
If I sleep.
I'll see you.
I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU.
You're driving me insane.

11:08

But… I can't live without you.
You're aware of this, right?
Shit… I know you are.
Are you aware of what you do to me?
Of how every word you say hits my heart?
And makes me want to scream in pain…
And want to die?

11:09

But… there's an upside.
You… make me happy.
You, without realizing,
Or maybe you did,
You saved me.
Saved my life.
I wanted to die.
Almost did.
Then… you...

11:10

Bed. Sleep.
Huh. Wonder if it's true.
Wishing at 11:11 and your wish'll come true.
I doubt it.
My wishes never come true.
But… I'll give it a try.
My wish?

11:11

For you.

Lies.
Hopeful.
Deceitful.
Lies.
Here's a truth for once,
Don't hate me for saying it,
I love y--

11:12

I... need sleep.